dies she loves me?
she loves me
not
though she has been saying ‘I love you so much more the last month
perhaps she…

so
it really does not matter
why?

she loves herself
and only that

the idea, the idea of me, a person as an idea, an image, a task, that is

of course she couldn’t love, not me
but the idea of a faithful, father and
lover

so?