‘if ‘ for Raymond Chandler

‘if I had a gun to her back she couldn’t,
wouldn’t, stand by me.’


love is a foreign dream for her…words, bought presents but not a ‘presence’ in a real, hurtful moment.

a hurtful moment? what is a hurtful moment?

when you find out that a loved, a loved one,

one who is now both unfaithful &


when they hurt you…without prayerful listening.
when there is no human touch
when she does not hear; listen; trust or believe

or he

hurt, not healing
death, not life
in their unfaithfulness

can you, just stop hurting me? that is my prayer

You can’t; so